So long

I feel like I haven't blogged in so long! I feel like I'm letting life get away from me. I am juggling being a stay-at-home mommy to two small children, keeping my house in order, trying to take an online public speaking course to finish up my Associates, and working part-time from home (and looking into starting another part-time job in a couple weeks.) And I just got my wisdom teeth out on Friday. Bleh!

At the moment I feel like I am drowning in my responsibilities and don't have time to do the things I would really like to do like play more with my children, have fun outings, make better dinners, and work on projects to beautify my home. I feel that I am not using my time wisely. And sitting here typing about all of this doesn't help. :o)

I am working on a speech for my class about someone I admire and why. I chose to speak on Sister Marjorie Pay Hinckley. I was reading in "Glimpses" to get some ideas of what I want to talk about and I came across this quote from a speech she gave to a group of women:

"We have a lot to learn about simplifying our lives. We have to decide what is important and then move along at a pace that is comfortable for us. We have to develop the maturity to stop trying to prove anything, to be what we are."

This has inspired me to take some time to ponder the things that are truly important to me. Some things do not matter. After deciding on the things that are important enough to hold onto, and letting go of the not-so-important things, I plan to ponder what pace is comfortable to me. And try and try until I get it right and then stick to it. I think this will help with my feelings of being overwhelmed much of the time.

I feel like there is always something. I am always saying, "Things will slow down after ______." Or "As soon as I get through ______, I'll have more time." Last night Josh and I were talking about what sacrifices are and aren't worth it. He gently reminded me (and himself) that our children will only be in our home all day for a few more years. Then they will be off to school all day. That time may seem far away but many of the things I am trying to push into now can wait until they are in school. I think too much about right now. I want to work on having a bigger perspective. I want to take time now to be with my children before they are gone at school and in someone else's care for most of the day.

Not to say that there are not things that should be done now. Like my Associates degree. I'm 4 credits away and I feel that it would be silly to just stop. I might as well get the last few credits finished so that if I go back later I don't have to start all over. But do I really have to do it all right now? It gives me a good amount to ponder. Especially with something I have lately been looking into doing. (I don't want to blog about it until it's a for sure thing.)

Just some thoughts...